Post by Boo Bernis on Apr 8, 2011 15:21:28 GMT -5
Ok, I know you hate me, but hear me out.
I did what I did because when I got voted out I was hearing so many things, and the people you were connected with ended up not saving me.
I knew it was my fault on why I got voted out, but I guess I felt if you really wanted me to stay, you'd do something about it like how Ozzy seemed to be in that SAME exact deal about keeping Kelly around as you were.
I figured Ozzy had talked to you about his plans and so on, so when I got voted out I figured you, or the lack of something you did, had a partial hand in me leaving.
I'm not sure if this is the case or not, and I know you weren't tight with me like you were with Sally or Kelly because we weren't on the same tribe and we haven't played this game together before.
ANYWYAS, all that to say I did what I did because I didn't know if I could trust you anymore, and rather I was...scared for lack of a better term to keep trust in you because sooo many people who I thought I could trust all betrayed me, and you're the BIGGEST player of them all.
So, I knew if I told Courtney that you intentionally got her voted out that it could help me and hurt me, but I was willing to take the hurt, but I didn't think Courtney would be so stupid to not believe it. Her hate for me must be soooo overpowering it doesn't even let her play the game correctly.
Anyways, so I knew when I told her she would run straight to you and open her mouth.
I did that because it's kind of like it's safer with the devil you know rather than the devil you don't know. I didn't know what your plans were for me, and I knew you were feeling a little distant of me because of what you heard, so I figured if I just MADE you upset at me and make me your "#1 target" than the game would be easier for me because I would know that you're coming for me rather than getting blindsided by you in the future.
I probably should have done it a different way, but I didn't want to come up to you and say "Hey I don't really trust you and would like to call things (whatever thing we have) off" so yeah, I went with the worst option more than likely to make it surefire you would not try to team up with me in any way shape or form.
I do really like you, had fun talking to you, and had fun playing the game with you.
If I don't come back into the game, I'll contact you with this sooner, but if I do come back into the game I'll leave it as it will be and we'll play it out.
I'm sure it will bite me in the butt, but at least I'll be expecting it, so I'll be able to play the game how I want to and not by someone's side who I feel could blindside me at any moment because they can't eliminate one of their girls.
I hope we can patch things up, and if not....well then my mistake for thinking we could.
(This was weird. It's like writing a letter to yourself in the future type of things, only it was to someone else!
)
I did what I did because when I got voted out I was hearing so many things, and the people you were connected with ended up not saving me.
I knew it was my fault on why I got voted out, but I guess I felt if you really wanted me to stay, you'd do something about it like how Ozzy seemed to be in that SAME exact deal about keeping Kelly around as you were.
I figured Ozzy had talked to you about his plans and so on, so when I got voted out I figured you, or the lack of something you did, had a partial hand in me leaving.
I'm not sure if this is the case or not, and I know you weren't tight with me like you were with Sally or Kelly because we weren't on the same tribe and we haven't played this game together before.
ANYWYAS, all that to say I did what I did because I didn't know if I could trust you anymore, and rather I was...scared for lack of a better term to keep trust in you because sooo many people who I thought I could trust all betrayed me, and you're the BIGGEST player of them all.
So, I knew if I told Courtney that you intentionally got her voted out that it could help me and hurt me, but I was willing to take the hurt, but I didn't think Courtney would be so stupid to not believe it. Her hate for me must be soooo overpowering it doesn't even let her play the game correctly.
Anyways, so I knew when I told her she would run straight to you and open her mouth.
I did that because it's kind of like it's safer with the devil you know rather than the devil you don't know. I didn't know what your plans were for me, and I knew you were feeling a little distant of me because of what you heard, so I figured if I just MADE you upset at me and make me your "#1 target" than the game would be easier for me because I would know that you're coming for me rather than getting blindsided by you in the future.
I probably should have done it a different way, but I didn't want to come up to you and say "Hey I don't really trust you and would like to call things (whatever thing we have) off" so yeah, I went with the worst option more than likely to make it surefire you would not try to team up with me in any way shape or form.
I do really like you, had fun talking to you, and had fun playing the game with you.
If I don't come back into the game, I'll contact you with this sooner, but if I do come back into the game I'll leave it as it will be and we'll play it out.
I'm sure it will bite me in the butt, but at least I'll be expecting it, so I'll be able to play the game how I want to and not by someone's side who I feel could blindside me at any moment because they can't eliminate one of their girls.
I hope we can patch things up, and if not....well then my mistake for thinking we could.
(This was weird. It's like writing a letter to yourself in the future type of things, only it was to someone else!
)