Post by Amanda Kimmel on Apr 7, 2011 16:04:32 GMT -5
Aw
That wasn't fun to see! So I came from being in a power position in this game by taking out Dreamz to being shoved into minority with Chase being voted out by Sally, Russell and Ozzy. This leaves myself and Sandra on the outs of our tribe and by the looks of it, they're going to want me to be out next. This is it for me, do or die and it sucks because I didn't want this happening, not this early in the game. So let's backtrack to before tribal council.I figured Russell was being suspicious, hence the reason we used our reward against Ozzy just in case he swapped to their side. His dialogue was just different and I got a new vibe from him, I wish I stressed that more than I did the possibility of an idol being played. In this case, they used a vote blocker and blocked my vote. Russell played this round very smart. He's looking out for himself and I applaud him for that. He set himself in the best position possible in our tribe of five because both pairs are going to need him to take out the other. So essentially, it's which side can offer the better deal.I myself have some pretty good arguments against them both but Ozzy seems to be stressing that I am close to Benry which indeed, I am but that boy's name is just cursing me in this game. I love him and I would do anything to get back to him in this game but I need him to separate himself from me completely while I'm trying to get there. If people don't lay off that I am close to Benry, then I am going to go on DMI with those people and potentially get kicked out of this game. Sandra and I have our work cut out for us but I'm sure we can pull something. Benry's tribe can surely take down our tribe in challenges and he has our whole alliance in his tribe, I need him to lose it for me so I don't go. He's safe over there but think's he's not and it bothers me
Nate is someone who wants to see me leave in this game badly. Him and probably Sally and Ozzy now lol. I spoke to Russell after the vote and he had said sorry and that I was probably not his number 1, therefore he did what he did to benefit himself. I really wanted to be able to trust him and that really sucked to have that happen to me. I liked him
I'm trying to keep my head held high because I know how things can turn out and it's not always what they seem. I'm still in this game and I will keep trying until I am finished and defeated on Dead Man's Island. Surely I don't want to go there and I'm going to try every angle possible to make it through any more Tribal Councils.I don't know what is going through Sally's head but I sure as hell know that Ozzy, herself and Russell are all just being best friends and having a good time with their Power Trip. I don't know!
I don't know what to do, I'm so lost and I was just knocked down, I'm going to have to scramble and I hate scrambling. I'm just going to pray a miracle happens and that I can make it through this. There are always obstacles, I think I can do it, I believe I can.
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