Post by Boo Bernis on Apr 5, 2011 14:27:51 GMT -5
Well, Aras left.
I feel rather lucky.
I felt the sudden change of the challenge was a bit unfair, but obviously it didn't effect me a whole lot although I think I could have beat Courtney.
I wish Candice would have gotten that advantage instead, but what can you do?
I wish Aras was still here because I know I could beat him in challenges where I won't be able to beat the other 2 most of the time.
Courtney's life obviously revolves around this particular game hence why she (after not wanting to talk to me for the last half of Capri and then all of this game) all of a sudden decides she wants to message me so she could find out how I'm doing on the challenge.
Really? Like I'd tell you! She's really annoying me now, and I think it's funny how she thinks a lot of people really do like her when people intentionally voted her out, and people pretend to be her friend just so they don't have to hear her bitch and whine all the time...I mean c'mon, you can't expect to act like you do and then still have everyone like you. Chase doesn't even want to work with her, and I'm not sure about Amanda yet, but she says she doesn't want to work with her either.
As a wise person told me a few days ago:
"Courtney is stupid. Courtney will always BE stupid. And you can't teach a jackass otherwise!"
COMPLETELY made my life hahaha
Right now I'm just trying to focus on myself and keeping myself alive in this game. I want to return soooo bad. I don't care who voted me out, why, and I don't really care about what's going on back in the game unless it's going to effect me.
I honestly feel it's bitter-sweet being at DMI. I get away from all the drama and having to stay up and talk to people, but every challenge is a fight for my life in the game which sucks. It's extremely nerve-wracking.
But overall I'd rather be in the game, but now in hindsight I've realized what I've done, what it's done to people in the game, and if I go back in the game after all these challenges I plan to change my game plan a bit.
I'm over-trusting and tend to be very gullible for some reason. I'm done believing everyone's on my side, ESPECIALLY here. There are so many pre-game alliances it's completely impossible to tell who is with who for real, and so my lips are shut from here on out.
There are only 4 people I will tell anything to in this game and those people are Gabe, Russ, Nate, and Shane.
The only one I wouldn't be sure if they'd keep THEIR lips shut at this point is Russell because I don't know him as well as the others, and he's been a shady character in the past.
It seems I tell him a lot and don't get much back, but he's warming up and I do trust him a lot.
I really need to get back in this game. If i can, I can REALLY see myself sitting very close to the end.
I've made this game pretty predictable for myself.
I know Parv is gunning for me, I don't trust Benry's side. I LIKE Chase, but I haven't been able to fully trust him and I know he feels the same way about me. While Benry's in this game, me and Chase is something that just won't work out. If I can get back in this game with those 4 people listed above still in, I'd say I'm in a pretty good spot. But anything can happen. I just need to get back in the game first.
Nate TOTALLY saved me in that duel. Luckily he had stuff to do, asked to sit out of the challenge, and then he got sent to DMI so I got the PERFECT person. I wouldn't have beaten any of the others.
I'm pissed Benry threw that for Courtney though, and since Candice won as well, I'm back to square one where I'm on the hot seat. Now whoever comes here (from what I've heard) is going to be a good challenge competitor, so my chances aren't looking good. I just need to buck up and do this next challenge hard to stay in.
I really like Candice, but for my game (and ONLY since Benry threw the challenge to Courtney) it would have been a lot better for me if Candice left. But what can you do? I'm glad she didn't waste her night and then lost since she had an exam. I'm proud of her. If that was me I know I'd hope Candice was rooting for me.
I felt awful though because I got REALLY lucky to be matched up against Nate- I know he would have thrown it for Candice had she gotten him, but now that Candice is here my conscience is clean.
Well, for now that's about it for my big update.
I thought that Gabe's tribe was supposed to throw the challenge, so not sure where that's headed haha
I'd like for them to go to tribal because I have a STRONG feeling Kelly or Parv would be leaving.
But I'd rather see Kelly here over Parv, and I've heard Benry's a choice too which would also REALLY suck for me...
I just want back in haha
The people being sent here don't make it any easier for me...
I feel rather lucky.
I felt the sudden change of the challenge was a bit unfair, but obviously it didn't effect me a whole lot although I think I could have beat Courtney.
I wish Candice would have gotten that advantage instead, but what can you do?
I wish Aras was still here because I know I could beat him in challenges where I won't be able to beat the other 2 most of the time.
Courtney's life obviously revolves around this particular game hence why she (after not wanting to talk to me for the last half of Capri and then all of this game) all of a sudden decides she wants to message me so she could find out how I'm doing on the challenge.
Really? Like I'd tell you! She's really annoying me now, and I think it's funny how she thinks a lot of people really do like her when people intentionally voted her out, and people pretend to be her friend just so they don't have to hear her bitch and whine all the time...I mean c'mon, you can't expect to act like you do and then still have everyone like you. Chase doesn't even want to work with her, and I'm not sure about Amanda yet, but she says she doesn't want to work with her either.
As a wise person told me a few days ago:
"Courtney is stupid. Courtney will always BE stupid. And you can't teach a jackass otherwise!"
COMPLETELY made my life hahaha
Right now I'm just trying to focus on myself and keeping myself alive in this game. I want to return soooo bad. I don't care who voted me out, why, and I don't really care about what's going on back in the game unless it's going to effect me.
I honestly feel it's bitter-sweet being at DMI. I get away from all the drama and having to stay up and talk to people, but every challenge is a fight for my life in the game which sucks. It's extremely nerve-wracking.
But overall I'd rather be in the game, but now in hindsight I've realized what I've done, what it's done to people in the game, and if I go back in the game after all these challenges I plan to change my game plan a bit.
I'm over-trusting and tend to be very gullible for some reason. I'm done believing everyone's on my side, ESPECIALLY here. There are so many pre-game alliances it's completely impossible to tell who is with who for real, and so my lips are shut from here on out.
There are only 4 people I will tell anything to in this game and those people are Gabe, Russ, Nate, and Shane.
The only one I wouldn't be sure if they'd keep THEIR lips shut at this point is Russell because I don't know him as well as the others, and he's been a shady character in the past.
It seems I tell him a lot and don't get much back, but he's warming up and I do trust him a lot.
I really need to get back in this game. If i can, I can REALLY see myself sitting very close to the end.
I've made this game pretty predictable for myself.
I know Parv is gunning for me, I don't trust Benry's side. I LIKE Chase, but I haven't been able to fully trust him and I know he feels the same way about me. While Benry's in this game, me and Chase is something that just won't work out. If I can get back in this game with those 4 people listed above still in, I'd say I'm in a pretty good spot. But anything can happen. I just need to get back in the game first.
Nate TOTALLY saved me in that duel. Luckily he had stuff to do, asked to sit out of the challenge, and then he got sent to DMI so I got the PERFECT person. I wouldn't have beaten any of the others.
I'm pissed Benry threw that for Courtney though, and since Candice won as well, I'm back to square one where I'm on the hot seat. Now whoever comes here (from what I've heard) is going to be a good challenge competitor, so my chances aren't looking good. I just need to buck up and do this next challenge hard to stay in.
I really like Candice, but for my game (and ONLY since Benry threw the challenge to Courtney) it would have been a lot better for me if Candice left. But what can you do? I'm glad she didn't waste her night and then lost since she had an exam. I'm proud of her. If that was me I know I'd hope Candice was rooting for me.
I felt awful though because I got REALLY lucky to be matched up against Nate- I know he would have thrown it for Candice had she gotten him, but now that Candice is here my conscience is clean.
Well, for now that's about it for my big update.
I thought that Gabe's tribe was supposed to throw the challenge, so not sure where that's headed haha
I'd like for them to go to tribal because I have a STRONG feeling Kelly or Parv would be leaving.
But I'd rather see Kelly here over Parv, and I've heard Benry's a choice too which would also REALLY suck for me...
I just want back in haha
The people being sent here don't make it any easier for me...
