Post by Boo Bernis on May 22, 2011 0:44:34 GMT -5
DISCLAIMER: Getting my vote will NOT be easy--just warning you ahead of time! 
I want honest answers no matter how harsh, and all questions answered whole heartedly.
I apologize in advance for the questions. I like clarification and reassurance and I want to make sure I vote for the right person.
Well, congratulations you three.
While I am definitely sitting on this side pretty upset, I congratulate you 3 based on the 3 different games you played, and I respect most of you guys' decisions and means to play.
I'll be quite frank with you, coming into this game I was just excited-it was my first All Star's game ever that actually followed through. I didn't know what to expect, but honest to God, the first thoughts that came to my mind was that I needed to get in with people early because of pre-determined relationships and alliances that I knew I didn't have.
I guess what I'm getting at is with all the pre-games and all the strategists this season, all the talkers, all the challenge whores, all the lying, the fights, the bitches, the trials and the triumphs, you 3 triumphed high above any of us and for the most part I am looking at an ideal final 3 for a game like this- one that is expected, and one you look at and you're proud unlike some seasons where there's only 1 person that could win or you'd be pissed off. I'm equally proud of each of you and I will be happy no matter what the outcome-it would be highly deserved by all 3.
I wish I could be sitting there and honestly at one point I thought I would be, basically after Candice left, me and Benry were immune and he told me about the idol, but I overestimated people's words, friendships, and completely overestimated exactly what people could and would do to get to the end in this game.
So I truly congratulate you 3 for doing something 18 other All Stars could not accomplish.
I've gotten to know most of you in this game pretty well, but I don't think I talked with any of you 3 on more than just a game basis except maybe Parvati a tiny bit.
As the people in this game who have taken the time to talk with me, they understand that I am very personal-take things personally, I enjoy personal relationships, not just game ones,
and most of all, I am always wondering what people think of me. I want to see what you've thought of me, and what info you have learned about me and if you've retained anything.
So my questions for all of you are these:
1. What are things you've learned about me since you started talking to me. I'm not really thinking strategy-wise, but if you've learned something about me through my strategy, tell me some of those as well. (Be as blunt as you feel you need to be, hurtful comments will only be absorbed to help me better in future games, they will not be used against you.) Please elaborate on these things-maybe what you received them as or how you view that aspect of me.
2. Do you think all these things are the real me, or do you feel these are just me as a player?
3. Which of these aspects stuck out the most to you and why?
4. Do you think outside of the context of the game that we would get along well, why or why not?
5. Had I made it to the final 3 (with Benry and Ashley like I had planned) whose Jury votes do you think/did you think I was going to receive?
6. I was named a social butterfly by some. Do you think this was me just being myself, or do you think I was really working it for the game? Do you think my social aspect of my game hurt me, or helped me more throughout this whole game. (You may go step by step-i.e before the game, before I got voted out, when I was on DMI, etc.)
7. Rate me from 1-10 on how well you think I executed the social, physical, and strategical aspects of the game. (Each individually) 1 being poor to 10 being really well. (This is not comparing me to anyone else in this game, just on my individual performance)
1. What have I said I love the most when typing?
2. What is my favorite color?
3. What is my real name? (Just first is fine)
4. Who are 3 players that I play as the most, and if you can tell me why I like them it would be a bonus
5. What state do I live in (If I'm not from the U.S what country)?
6. What sport do I play?
7. What is my religion?
8. How old am I?
9. What instrument do I play? (Or do I not play one?)
10. What is my favorite tv show (besides Survivor)?
Ok, now I have some personal statements to make about you 3, and along with the statements I have some more questions (I know, I'm sorry but my vote is not even remotely close to being decided and I need all the info I can get.)
These can be brief, just enough to cover the details that you need to share.
Parvati I'll start with you-
I came into this game knowing there was one person I needed to get my hands on, or rather to get their hands on me, and that person was you. I've read up on the seasons, probably more than most, and I came to understand a lot of the characteristics that defined you as a player and also what you may do while we were playing in this game together...so I made sure to start talking to you even in Capri while I didn't even know if I made AS yet so then I may have something to go off with you rather than just a "Hey we're playing and we should start talking" type thing. I'm not sure if it worked, but as far as I could tell up until the point that I left, me and you were on good terms. I enjoyed talking to you, but then once I left I think I caught onto you a bit.
Like you mentioned you told Kelly to turn away from me and go with Ozzy, like I had come to you and asked about that same night and you went a bit ape on me!
That move definitely hurt and then I knew, although it wasn't you directly, that you were completely playing me.
I want to know a few things:
1. Do you think me going on an immunity run ultimately helped your game (allowing you to turn your target away from me and target people like Nate Candice, and Russell who were a threat to you)?
2. What made you turn on me originally rather then letting me be with you come merge time? Did you ever plan to keep me around or were you just playing me from day 1?
3. Had I originally been a villain like it was planned, how would our relationship be different? Obviously it's hard to play together from opposite sides. Would I have been another person you tossed aside or do you think I would have worked into your plans somehow?
4. Now I feel you've had a double vote since merge, obviously since I put that on my vote in the first round of merge! Do you feel that having Kelly around all through merge is going to hinder your chances since you pretty much had a double vote all game, or do you think because people were too stupid to do anything about it means that it shouldn't?
Had Kelly gone home that first round by that STUPID and useless prize Ashley used in the first round of merge, where would you see yourself sitting at that point?
5. When the eChallenge showed up, you all of a sudden started talking to me after not saying a single word to me since I came back into the game. What was your purpose for that? I sincerely think it was for more than just "to talk" like you put it.
6. Were you aware that Russell and I talked a lot? (I'm sure the answer is yes so now I want to know a few other things) Were you in any way apart of him talking to me so much and if so, what part did you contribute-i.e was this something devised by you to make sure you knew what was happening but you couldn't do it yourself so you sent Russell to do it? (I know this is a weird question, but this may factor into my vote for your sake as well).
7. If you didn't have immunity in final 5 (when I left) and final 4 (When Kelly left) do you think Benry and Ashley would have still kept you, or do you think those immunities saved you?
8. And lastly, after everything that has happened this game, what do you think of me?
Thanks Parv, it was definitely interesting to watch your plans unfold while you were in the game and I was glad to have immunity a few times so I could watch from the sidelines with popcorn not having to worry and just seeing who you would strike next!
It was truly a pleasure to play with you (not really with you, but in the game with you) and I do hope to see you in the future!
Now Ashley-
I didn't talk to you until merge because during the whole pre-merge stage I knew you were with Benry and I was very much against the Benry movement. When we did start to talk it still wasn't a ton, but I did enjoy them when we were on at the same time!
But unfortunately out of the 3 sitting up there, I know you the least.
So I want to know-
1. What are some major qualities about you? (3 good ones 3 bad ones) one as a person in real life, and then one about you as a player. (So 2 separate questions, 6 qualities for each (3 good, 3 bad)).
2. I know this isn't your personality and I hate to do this to you, but I'm getting a little light headed from all the love that you and Benry share. So bash on Benry a bit, not why he doesn't deserve my vote, but tell me some things this game that he did that pissed you off.
As it's clearly been stated many times, a lot of us see you as following in Benry's foot steps while he followed in Parv's.
I want to know-
3. Name a few instances where you could have fought to keep someone, or turned your vote a different way, but chose not to. What was going through your mind in these moments and why did you not try to change the game? (Not just "I changed my vote even if we wouldn't have numbers, but name times when you could have REALLY fought for someone and you let go of the chance.)
4. After everything that has happened this game, what do you think of me? Would I be someone you would like to play with again, why or why not?
5. Looking back on your 1st season in this series, then looking here, what would you say you've done differently and improved in order to jump from 10th all the way to at least 3rd place? I know the eChallenge got you, but we all saw that you can kick butt at a challenge if you need to. So how far do you think you would have made it had you not been eliminated in that eChallenge your first season and what have you done differently this time around and improved to get where you are?
6. And lastly, would you ever play Call of Duty with me? (that was seriously the hottest thing I've heard by the way )
Thanks Ashley!
I really do love your gameplay, not too many people can go through this game doing what you did and make it to the end without getting tossed aside. I know a lot of this has to do with Benry, but I seriously think you were underrated.
You're a very honest person and I respected you for how you've played. The only thing that I'm upset with about you is you let me fall, and then played it off like it was Benry. You didn't throw him under the bus, but you honestly did nothing to help me which in my mind you might as well have just voted me out. I was pretty disappointed in that, but it is what it is.
It was fun getting to know you a bit and I hope to see you around!
Now...lastly, Benry:
God...I cannot sit her and say that I am not disappointed in you, or hurt....but I can't say I'm surprised either, I just hoped that would never happen.
Can you just tell me exactly what happened in the past 2 rounds (final 7 or 8 up until the point you voted me out) that you went from saying that I wasn't a threat to you and you didn't feel you needed to get me out yet to then you voting me out because you were so afraid of me winning it all???
And seriously, the thing I'm most upset about is that you threw me to trash in pretty much the SAME way Parv did to Nate. Granted Nate and Parv had a relationship for a long time before the game whereas me and you know the relationship we've had and like you said it's very fresh.
But you used me to advance you and Ashley to the end...I can't say I'm the reason that you are there because you set yourself up good to where no matter what I did you'd be in the end...but I CAN say that from final 7 to now, I am a HUGE reason your final 2 partner is sitting next to you. I very well could have betrayed and voted her out but I honestly thought you would then repay and help bring me to the end where I obviously needed you.
You came to me at about final 6 and you said
shadowcatx312 (12:41:09 AM): for that reason i hope ur not afraid to sit with me in the finals xD.. ihave a pretty poor social game wit ha lot of ppl..and i thought i played capri amazingly..and i nearly lost by 1 vote so...
shadowcatx312 (12:41:12 AM): x]
Then later you said:
ShadowcatX312 (2:39:51 PM): like i dont get it, if were a f3
ShadowcatX312 (2:39:57 PM): why risk it?
And to top it all off, the MINUTE Parv won that final 5 immunity, you came to me and said the vote is for Kelly, then proceeded to talk to me about how it is still her and how we get to go to final 4, deja vu, yay I'm so excited blah blah blah, only to blindside me and cut me loose when you could have just told me "Hey I'm so sorry but you're too threatening and I need to vote you out."
Then what would I do? I had no where to turn, I'd just accept my fate and get along with it. Just like Nate said Parv used their friendship as kind of a leverage to keep him in check and stuff, you played me for a COMPLETE fool, making me think we actually had a shot at going to the end together. You made it seem like our plans were full proof and that for ONCE I was in the majority and heading to the final 3 with 2 people I would have been honored to be there with. I sat there like an idiot telling you how excited I was to be in final 4 with you and Ash and how I felt we had a good thing... You got my hopes up, you lured me in, used me for what you needed me for and then threw me to shit!
And I'm trying to figure out why you would vote me out possibly putting Ash in jeopardy after you got done explaining to me how going to final 4 with Parv and Kelly was stupid...granted it worked and you're sitting there with Ashley, but what made you risk that knowing Parv could have caused a tie which would have sent Ashley home when you could have brought me and it would have been full-proof, and then if Parv won immunity again, you 3 would just vote me out?
I just don't understand...
Just make me understand without using my paranoia as a scapegoat because you knew, and if I remember said over and over, that I wouldn't go to Parv and Kelly at any point in this game...Had I played cocky and acted like I knew I was getting f4 (which is what I tried to do but still make sure you knew I was true because I thought being paranoid would make you turn on me) you still would have done it anyways. It just gave you another reason to write my name down, one where it would look like it's my fault and not yours.
But no matter what happened you were in top 3 guaranteed and I knew that, I just didn't think you'd be so easily turned.
But you KNEW I wouldn't go to Parv or Kelly, that is the ONLY reason why I gave in and voted Russell was to show I was completely on your side and ready to go to the end with you. You let me throw away a friendship that I created this game that far surpassed one I had with you or Ashley and you threw it in my face...the whole reason you did that was to make sure I wouldn't turn, but you voted me out because I was nervous...What the hell was I going to do? Parv and Kelly would target me the minute I didn't have immunity, I knew that and I would have never went to them anyways. Which that only leaves one thing...sticking with you and Ash, so I don't see how my nervousness played into your vote.
And no, I'm not REALLY pissed off, just a little mad, frustrated and hurt...because you and me actually started talking about other things than just the game, I felt we got on more of a personal level this time around than we did in Capri. And the thing that hurts the worst is you KNEW how much getting 4th place and doing Rites of Passage meant to me...and yet Kelly who has done nothing and just doesn't even care about this game lived another day simply BECAUSE she hasn't done anything and doesn't care. It's not right, not just to me but to most of these people...but it is what it is...
I guess in this game you need to be pretty selfish, but you didn't gain anything by voting me out except a more embarrassing outcome in the FTC...I feel you let Parv into the end and now she's going to take it, not that it upsets me at all, I just think you taking me to the finals may have given you a better chance, but I guess here's your chance to prove me wrong.
So, obviously I have some questions for you:
1. At what point did you decide you were going to vote me out? Were you thinking you were at any point just the minute I didn't have immunity? Did you decide right before deadline? For all I know you seriously were thinking Kelly until later, but I want to know for sure.
2. On a scale from 1 to 10, how hard was it to vote me out? 1 being nothing at all, to 10 being it was really hard for you to turn on me. Explain why in a short explanation.
3. Did you expect us to even get along this game, and are you pleased with how things turned out?
4. Seeing your chances now, would you take back voting me out at all, or do you feel you did the right thing? (I will also look at your answer to the what jury votes you thought I'd get to help me with this question, I won't make you repeat it but that's something I really want to know from you on that question).
5. After everything that has happened this game, what do you think of me?
6. And lastly, Benry I want to know (an honest and whole hearted answer, you may include pictures), but what in the WORLD would you do if you ACTUALLY witnessed a cat encased in a pop tart pooping rainbows while running and mewoing in an EXTREMELY fast manor?
I know what I would do, so I would like to see if our answers would match up! (And thank you for forever changing my life)
Thanks Benry, I would be sitting here saying it was great to play with you again, but honestly this game left a bitter taste in my mouth and your move at the end there was just the bitter crab apple on the top of the whole cake this game baked with sour milk and rotten ingredients. I'm pretty upset about it still, bitter? A bit maybe, but as I've gotten to sit on it longer it actually hasn't "slowly healed" but progressively got harder to understand. I'm hoping you'll give me the answers I need because I do think you have a shot at this game and I do think you would be deserving if you were to win. Just because you screwed me doesn't mean I won't vote you, I'm not voting on personal feelings necessarily.
You played a good game, but to me, your move was the most villainous of them all....
Since we're on this I have 2 questions for Benry AND Ashley (sorry, needed her to see). I want to know a few things about the round I got voted out and the round Russell left.
Think of these if I would be immune through to the end, would I do these things to still help you even if I knew what actually happened.
1. Knowing what you know about me as a person and a player, if I were to go back do you think I would have told Russell about the idol to target someone different if I could do it all over again?
2. Knowing what you know about me as a person and a player, if I were to go back do you think I would vote out Russell if I could do it over again?
3. Knowing what you know about me as a person and a player, if I were to go back do you think I would help you 2 out again?
THE LAST STRETCH!!! I SERIOUSLY AM SORRY
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For all:
It's time to have a bit of fun. I know my questions above were boring because you had to explain all your moves and such, but now I want to see what you've gathered from the people playing in this game.
1. Give each Juror (and your other 2 finalists) a 3 adjective description, no explanation.
2. Name 2 things you've learned about each Juror (and your fellow finalists) that you didn't know before (not strategically or game wise, personally). This can be name (not age) but basically any of the things asked in the first few questions I wrote. (You do not have to repeat me). If you knew them a lot before, then just say so and give a few things.
3. If you could compare each Juror (and yourselves) to a chess piece, what would it be and give a brief description of why.
Thanks you 3.
Sorry this is so long, but I need to know exactly who I'll be voting for, how they played the game, and if they even cared/paid attention to the people playing with them.
I enjoyed playing with the 3 of you even if it was for a short time or a long time.
I also want to thank Nat and Tom for not only an amazing season, but an amazing first chapter to this series.
I had fun playing with every one of you and I think this was an amazing cast. It was fun and I hope to see most of you in future games in this series and out of it!
I wish you 3 good luck and since I think you are all very deserving, may the best player win!
I want honest answers no matter how harsh, and all questions answered whole heartedly.I apologize in advance for the questions. I like clarification and reassurance and I want to make sure I vote for the right person.
Well, congratulations you three.
While I am definitely sitting on this side pretty upset, I congratulate you 3 based on the 3 different games you played, and I respect most of you guys' decisions and means to play.
I'll be quite frank with you, coming into this game I was just excited-it was my first All Star's game ever that actually followed through. I didn't know what to expect, but honest to God, the first thoughts that came to my mind was that I needed to get in with people early because of pre-determined relationships and alliances that I knew I didn't have.
I guess what I'm getting at is with all the pre-games and all the strategists this season, all the talkers, all the challenge whores, all the lying, the fights, the bitches, the trials and the triumphs, you 3 triumphed high above any of us and for the most part I am looking at an ideal final 3 for a game like this- one that is expected, and one you look at and you're proud unlike some seasons where there's only 1 person that could win or you'd be pissed off. I'm equally proud of each of you and I will be happy no matter what the outcome-it would be highly deserved by all 3.
I wish I could be sitting there and honestly at one point I thought I would be, basically after Candice left, me and Benry were immune and he told me about the idol, but I overestimated people's words, friendships, and completely overestimated exactly what people could and would do to get to the end in this game.
So I truly congratulate you 3 for doing something 18 other All Stars could not accomplish.
I've gotten to know most of you in this game pretty well, but I don't think I talked with any of you 3 on more than just a game basis except maybe Parvati a tiny bit.
As the people in this game who have taken the time to talk with me, they understand that I am very personal-take things personally, I enjoy personal relationships, not just game ones,
and most of all, I am always wondering what people think of me. I want to see what you've thought of me, and what info you have learned about me and if you've retained anything.
So my questions for all of you are these:
1. What are things you've learned about me since you started talking to me. I'm not really thinking strategy-wise, but if you've learned something about me through my strategy, tell me some of those as well. (Be as blunt as you feel you need to be, hurtful comments will only be absorbed to help me better in future games, they will not be used against you.) Please elaborate on these things-maybe what you received them as or how you view that aspect of me.
2. Do you think all these things are the real me, or do you feel these are just me as a player?
3. Which of these aspects stuck out the most to you and why?
4. Do you think outside of the context of the game that we would get along well, why or why not?
5. Had I made it to the final 3 (with Benry and Ashley like I had planned) whose Jury votes do you think/did you think I was going to receive?
6. I was named a social butterfly by some. Do you think this was me just being myself, or do you think I was really working it for the game? Do you think my social aspect of my game hurt me, or helped me more throughout this whole game. (You may go step by step-i.e before the game, before I got voted out, when I was on DMI, etc.)
7. Rate me from 1-10 on how well you think I executed the social, physical, and strategical aspects of the game. (Each individually) 1 being poor to 10 being really well. (This is not comparing me to anyone else in this game, just on my individual performance)
About me: (should be short answers, one word even)PM me these answers so no one will see what your answers are except me. *Talking like Host Tom* (Do not discuss these answers with your fellow finalists or Jurors. If I find out you have, you will receive a penalty and lose this part of the questioning. kidding.
[/b] kidding.1. What have I said I love the most when typing?
2. What is my favorite color?
3. What is my real name? (Just first is fine)
4. Who are 3 players that I play as the most, and if you can tell me why I like them it would be a bonus
5. What state do I live in (If I'm not from the U.S what country)?
6. What sport do I play?
7. What is my religion?
8. How old am I?
9. What instrument do I play? (Or do I not play one?)
10. What is my favorite tv show (besides Survivor)?
Ok, now I have some personal statements to make about you 3, and along with the statements I have some more questions (I know, I'm sorry but my vote is not even remotely close to being decided and I need all the info I can get.)
These can be brief, just enough to cover the details that you need to share.
Parvati I'll start with you-
I came into this game knowing there was one person I needed to get my hands on, or rather to get their hands on me, and that person was you. I've read up on the seasons, probably more than most, and I came to understand a lot of the characteristics that defined you as a player and also what you may do while we were playing in this game together...so I made sure to start talking to you even in Capri while I didn't even know if I made AS yet so then I may have something to go off with you rather than just a "Hey we're playing and we should start talking" type thing. I'm not sure if it worked, but as far as I could tell up until the point that I left, me and you were on good terms. I enjoyed talking to you, but then once I left I think I caught onto you a bit.
Like you mentioned you told Kelly to turn away from me and go with Ozzy, like I had come to you and asked about that same night and you went a bit ape on me!
That move definitely hurt and then I knew, although it wasn't you directly, that you were completely playing me.
I want to know a few things:
1. Do you think me going on an immunity run ultimately helped your game (allowing you to turn your target away from me and target people like Nate Candice, and Russell who were a threat to you)?
2. What made you turn on me originally rather then letting me be with you come merge time? Did you ever plan to keep me around or were you just playing me from day 1?
3. Had I originally been a villain like it was planned, how would our relationship be different? Obviously it's hard to play together from opposite sides. Would I have been another person you tossed aside or do you think I would have worked into your plans somehow?
4. Now I feel you've had a double vote since merge, obviously since I put that on my vote in the first round of merge!
Do you feel that having Kelly around all through merge is going to hinder your chances since you pretty much had a double vote all game, or do you think because people were too stupid to do anything about it means that it shouldn't?Had Kelly gone home that first round by that STUPID and useless prize Ashley used in the first round of merge, where would you see yourself sitting at that point?
5. When the eChallenge showed up, you all of a sudden started talking to me after not saying a single word to me since I came back into the game. What was your purpose for that? I sincerely think it was for more than just "to talk" like you put it.
6. Were you aware that Russell and I talked a lot? (I'm sure the answer is yes so now I want to know a few other things) Were you in any way apart of him talking to me so much and if so, what part did you contribute-i.e was this something devised by you to make sure you knew what was happening but you couldn't do it yourself so you sent Russell to do it? (I know this is a weird question, but this may factor into my vote for your sake as well).
7. If you didn't have immunity in final 5 (when I left) and final 4 (When Kelly left) do you think Benry and Ashley would have still kept you, or do you think those immunities saved you?
8. And lastly, after everything that has happened this game, what do you think of me?
Thanks Parv, it was definitely interesting to watch your plans unfold while you were in the game and I was glad to have immunity a few times so I could watch from the sidelines with popcorn not having to worry and just seeing who you would strike next!
It was truly a pleasure to play with you (not really with you, but in the game with you) and I do hope to see you in the future!
Now Ashley-
I didn't talk to you until merge because during the whole pre-merge stage I knew you were with Benry and I was very much against the Benry movement. When we did start to talk it still wasn't a ton, but I did enjoy them when we were on at the same time!
But unfortunately out of the 3 sitting up there, I know you the least.
So I want to know-
1. What are some major qualities about you? (3 good ones 3 bad ones) one as a person in real life, and then one about you as a player. (So 2 separate questions, 6 qualities for each (3 good, 3 bad)).
2. I know this isn't your personality and I hate to do this to you, but I'm getting a little light headed from all the love that you and Benry share. So bash on Benry a bit, not why he doesn't deserve my vote, but tell me some things this game that he did that pissed you off.
As it's clearly been stated many times, a lot of us see you as following in Benry's foot steps while he followed in Parv's.
I want to know-
3. Name a few instances where you could have fought to keep someone, or turned your vote a different way, but chose not to. What was going through your mind in these moments and why did you not try to change the game? (Not just "I changed my vote even if we wouldn't have numbers, but name times when you could have REALLY fought for someone and you let go of the chance.)
4. After everything that has happened this game, what do you think of me? Would I be someone you would like to play with again, why or why not?
5. Looking back on your 1st season in this series, then looking here, what would you say you've done differently and improved in order to jump from 10th all the way to at least 3rd place? I know the eChallenge got you, but we all saw that you can kick butt at a challenge if you need to. So how far do you think you would have made it had you not been eliminated in that eChallenge your first season and what have you done differently this time around and improved to get where you are?
6. And lastly, would you ever play Call of Duty with me?
(that was seriously the hottest thing I've heard by the way )Thanks Ashley!
I really do love your gameplay, not too many people can go through this game doing what you did and make it to the end without getting tossed aside. I know a lot of this has to do with Benry, but I seriously think you were underrated.
You're a very honest person and I respected you for how you've played. The only thing that I'm upset with about you is you let me fall, and then played it off like it was Benry. You didn't throw him under the bus, but you honestly did nothing to help me which in my mind you might as well have just voted me out. I was pretty disappointed in that, but it is what it is.
It was fun getting to know you a bit and I hope to see you around!
Now...lastly, Benry:
God...I cannot sit her and say that I am not disappointed in you, or hurt....but I can't say I'm surprised either, I just hoped that would never happen.
Can you just tell me exactly what happened in the past 2 rounds (final 7 or 8 up until the point you voted me out) that you went from saying that I wasn't a threat to you and you didn't feel you needed to get me out yet to then you voting me out because you were so afraid of me winning it all???
And seriously, the thing I'm most upset about is that you threw me to trash in pretty much the SAME way Parv did to Nate. Granted Nate and Parv had a relationship for a long time before the game whereas me and you know the relationship we've had and like you said it's very fresh.
But you used me to advance you and Ashley to the end...I can't say I'm the reason that you are there because you set yourself up good to where no matter what I did you'd be in the end...but I CAN say that from final 7 to now, I am a HUGE reason your final 2 partner is sitting next to you. I very well could have betrayed and voted her out but I honestly thought you would then repay and help bring me to the end where I obviously needed you.
You came to me at about final 6 and you said
shadowcatx312 (12:41:09 AM): for that reason i hope ur not afraid to sit with me in the finals xD.. ihave a pretty poor social game wit ha lot of ppl..and i thought i played capri amazingly..and i nearly lost by 1 vote so...
shadowcatx312 (12:41:12 AM): x]
Then later you said:
ShadowcatX312 (2:39:51 PM): like i dont get it, if were a f3
ShadowcatX312 (2:39:57 PM): why risk it?
And to top it all off, the MINUTE Parv won that final 5 immunity, you came to me and said the vote is for Kelly, then proceeded to talk to me about how it is still her and how we get to go to final 4, deja vu, yay I'm so excited blah blah blah, only to blindside me and cut me loose when you could have just told me "Hey I'm so sorry but you're too threatening and I need to vote you out."
Then what would I do? I had no where to turn, I'd just accept my fate and get along with it. Just like Nate said Parv used their friendship as kind of a leverage to keep him in check and stuff, you played me for a COMPLETE fool, making me think we actually had a shot at going to the end together. You made it seem like our plans were full proof and that for ONCE I was in the majority and heading to the final 3 with 2 people I would have been honored to be there with. I sat there like an idiot telling you how excited I was to be in final 4 with you and Ash and how I felt we had a good thing... You got my hopes up, you lured me in, used me for what you needed me for and then threw me to shit!
And I'm trying to figure out why you would vote me out possibly putting Ash in jeopardy after you got done explaining to me how going to final 4 with Parv and Kelly was stupid...granted it worked and you're sitting there with Ashley, but what made you risk that knowing Parv could have caused a tie which would have sent Ashley home when you could have brought me and it would have been full-proof, and then if Parv won immunity again, you 3 would just vote me out?
I just don't understand...
Just make me understand without using my paranoia as a scapegoat because you knew, and if I remember said over and over, that I wouldn't go to Parv and Kelly at any point in this game...Had I played cocky and acted like I knew I was getting f4 (which is what I tried to do but still make sure you knew I was true because I thought being paranoid would make you turn on me) you still would have done it anyways. It just gave you another reason to write my name down, one where it would look like it's my fault and not yours.
But no matter what happened you were in top 3 guaranteed and I knew that, I just didn't think you'd be so easily turned.
But you KNEW I wouldn't go to Parv or Kelly, that is the ONLY reason why I gave in and voted Russell was to show I was completely on your side and ready to go to the end with you. You let me throw away a friendship that I created this game that far surpassed one I had with you or Ashley and you threw it in my face...the whole reason you did that was to make sure I wouldn't turn, but you voted me out because I was nervous...What the hell was I going to do? Parv and Kelly would target me the minute I didn't have immunity, I knew that and I would have never went to them anyways. Which that only leaves one thing...sticking with you and Ash, so I don't see how my nervousness played into your vote.
And no, I'm not REALLY pissed off, just a little mad, frustrated and hurt...because you and me actually started talking about other things than just the game, I felt we got on more of a personal level this time around than we did in Capri. And the thing that hurts the worst is you KNEW how much getting 4th place and doing Rites of Passage meant to me...and yet Kelly who has done nothing and just doesn't even care about this game lived another day simply BECAUSE she hasn't done anything and doesn't care. It's not right, not just to me but to most of these people...but it is what it is...
I guess in this game you need to be pretty selfish, but you didn't gain anything by voting me out except a more embarrassing outcome in the FTC...I feel you let Parv into the end and now she's going to take it, not that it upsets me at all, I just think you taking me to the finals may have given you a better chance, but I guess here's your chance to prove me wrong.
So, obviously I have some questions for you:
1. At what point did you decide you were going to vote me out? Were you thinking you were at any point just the minute I didn't have immunity? Did you decide right before deadline? For all I know you seriously were thinking Kelly until later, but I want to know for sure.
2. On a scale from 1 to 10, how hard was it to vote me out? 1 being nothing at all, to 10 being it was really hard for you to turn on me. Explain why in a short explanation.
3. Did you expect us to even get along this game, and are you pleased with how things turned out?
4. Seeing your chances now, would you take back voting me out at all, or do you feel you did the right thing? (I will also look at your answer to the what jury votes you thought I'd get to help me with this question, I won't make you repeat it but that's something I really want to know from you on that question).
5. After everything that has happened this game, what do you think of me?
6. And lastly, Benry I want to know (an honest and whole hearted answer, you may include pictures), but what in the WORLD would you do if you ACTUALLY witnessed a cat encased in a pop tart pooping rainbows while running and mewoing in an EXTREMELY fast manor?
I know what I would do, so I would like to see if our answers would match up! (And thank you for forever changing my life)
Thanks Benry, I would be sitting here saying it was great to play with you again, but honestly this game left a bitter taste in my mouth and your move at the end there was just the bitter crab apple on the top of the whole cake this game baked with sour milk and rotten ingredients. I'm pretty upset about it still, bitter? A bit maybe, but as I've gotten to sit on it longer it actually hasn't "slowly healed" but progressively got harder to understand. I'm hoping you'll give me the answers I need because I do think you have a shot at this game and I do think you would be deserving if you were to win. Just because you screwed me doesn't mean I won't vote you, I'm not voting on personal feelings necessarily.
You played a good game, but to me, your move was the most villainous of them all....
Since we're on this I have 2 questions for Benry AND Ashley (sorry, needed her to see). I want to know a few things about the round I got voted out and the round Russell left.
Think of these if I would be immune through to the end, would I do these things to still help you even if I knew what actually happened.
1. Knowing what you know about me as a person and a player, if I were to go back do you think I would have told Russell about the idol to target someone different if I could do it all over again?
2. Knowing what you know about me as a person and a player, if I were to go back do you think I would vote out Russell if I could do it over again?
3. Knowing what you know about me as a person and a player, if I were to go back do you think I would help you 2 out again?
THE LAST STRETCH!!! I SERIOUSLY AM SORRY
[/size]For all:
It's time to have a bit of fun. I know my questions above were boring because you had to explain all your moves and such, but now I want to see what you've gathered from the people playing in this game.
1. Give each Juror (and your other 2 finalists) a 3 adjective description, no explanation.
2. Name 2 things you've learned about each Juror (and your fellow finalists) that you didn't know before (not strategically or game wise, personally). This can be name (not age) but basically any of the things asked in the first few questions I wrote. (You do not have to repeat me). If you knew them a lot before, then just say so and give a few things.
3. If you could compare each Juror (and yourselves) to a chess piece, what would it be and give a brief description of why.
Thanks you 3.
Sorry this is so long, but I need to know exactly who I'll be voting for, how they played the game, and if they even cared/paid attention to the people playing with them.
I enjoyed playing with the 3 of you even if it was for a short time or a long time.
I also want to thank Nat and Tom for not only an amazing season, but an amazing first chapter to this series.
I had fun playing with every one of you and I think this was an amazing cast. It was fun and I hope to see most of you in future games in this series and out of it!
I wish you 3 good luck and since I think you are all very deserving, may the best player win!
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