Week 11/12

[Boo Bernis]

Well I am sad to see Shane go, but it was for my benefit because it was either me or him.
Apparently there was a last minute plan to get me out. I heard it from Shane but I thought Benry was just blowing smoke up his butt to scramble.
Anyways I told Gabe about it, but then I thought I needed to tell Ozzy, so I asked Shane if I could...he said yes. So I told Ozzy.
I'm assuming Ozzy told Russell because he trusts Russ for some reason. Anyways dumb choice (so I thought) because whoever Ozzy told said it back to Parv that Ozzy knew when he wasn't supposed to.
Nate said that gave him a chance to throw Shane's name back out there taking the votes off me.
So as sucky as it is to know that Shane is gone basically because of me, it's also great to know that my big mouth finally saved me for once hahahaha
I did not tell anyone but Gabe that they all thought Shane told and that's why he left. If they found out I said something, I guarantee it wouldn't be good, although I almost told Nate when he said that. I decided to let it go and just wait until a better time haha

For now, I'm just gonna lay low. As much as I hate to do it and don't want to, it's really the only way to keep my huge target a little bit smaller. I need to wait until the last possible moment before I start to scramble and strike.
Meaning Gabe needs to leave, and possibly Benry--although I think Benry is working with Parv, so that will be an issue. I think others see it too though, so I'm hoping Gabe wins the next immunity challenge and then the target comes on me. When that happens I'm sure Russ, Candice, and Nate will all make a move. If not then they're idiots.
Kelly or Parv needs to go NOW!

[Boo Bernis]

Alright, so Nate won immunity all that good stuff.
At first I heard it was going to be Gabe, and I was just going to have to live with it, but THEN I came on and find out it's Ozzy!
OH GOD I love this. Me and Ozzy were up so late chatting with Gabe and Shane about all these plans, and I'm so happy to know I finally get my chance to blindside Ozzy! ;D
He screwed me over oh so long ago, but I never have let that go, and wanted his head on a platter.
As much as I knew he was telling the truth to me and stuff, he just had to go, and I know I can't ever fully trust him again. He needed to feel the same thing I felt, and I'm almost sure it was for kind of the same reasons--karma, and ironic I guess

So, I still didn't believe everyone would be voting Ozzy, but sure enough they did, and I'm happy.
Right now I'm still laying low, but I know next it will be either me or Gabe, and I'm sure my name will be everyone's favorite choice.
I still hope Gabe wins this immunity because if he doesn't there's honestly nothing I can do to save him. If he does, I have some connections that may save me (I'd hope would save me) so I'd at least have a chance.
Anyways, this round is definitely gonna be nerve-wracking, I just hope people get smart and go for Benry this round. Surprisingly he hasn't gone on any immunity runs yet, but it's probably because we haven't had too many endurance challenges

I'm still waiting for our next eChallenge. I'm hoping one comes up because I think Kelly would go and I'd LOVE to see that happen hahaha
Parv would scramble for sure.

I found out that Candice is Sydney from season 1 which completely RUINS anything whatever small thing Russell and I had..COMPLETELY.
As much as I want to confront him about it, or ask Nate if he feels Candice is really as close to him as he thinks, I can't. It's not a good time. I'm sure that would just make them trust me less and make them want to vote me out.
But it definitely sucks.
AAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA She was trying to be all secretive when I asked her, but she didn't realize she wrote it in her confessional in Pata which she never even edited hahahaha
So, yes I know, and she can't know I know right now.

UGH this game is so blah!
I don't like most of the people here...and I'd love nothing more than to outlast all of them!

[Tom Westman]

Interesting stuff... So do you have a plan on how to make the end from here? Given both Shane and Ozzy leaving?

[Boo Bernis]

Well it definitely shook up my plans, but I still have hope for myself...

I think if I want to advance any farther, Gabe needs to leave...
BUT I'd obviously rather have me AND Gabe advance, but I don't think that will be possible.

I think Benry is with Parv, and others are getting that suspicion too, so we'll see where that leads.
I've been trying to pin it in Nate's head that Gabe advancing will benefit both of us to help us keep numbers, but he seems fixed on Gabe leaving.
It was Benry, now it's Gabe.
My days are definitely numbered, but either this round or next round I'll need to make my voice heard a bit. Nate wants me to lay low, but at this point I'm not winning this game unless I can bring Gabe and/or Kelly with me to finals.
I think I would beat both, but I gotta make a move soon!

If I could win this immunity or the next one I would have more leverage and be able to put myself out there a bit, but if I can't get that necklace around my neck I can't stick my neck out an inch or it will get chopped off.

I would LIKE to get me, Gabe, Nate, Candice, and Russell and just take out these people 1 by 1, but they don't seem too hung on the idea. But I haven't talked to Russell or Candice about any sort of possibility like that yet.
I don't trust Candice enough to not go and say anything.

But we'll see.
These next few rounds will definitely be interesting.